They never said it would be easy, but they did say it would be worth it and its been more than I could have dreamed of. Yes, I am slightly sleep deprived. Yes, I have realised I can go without looking at my cellphone for hours and yes, I have not had a shower for longer than 2 minutes, but I have had a month of angel-gazing and am looking forward to many more!
Exactly 1 month ago, our 9 month journey together stepped into another dimension. Our son’s first scream in this world is now echoed every night at 2 am, 3 am, 4 am, 5am … But, there is nothing more incredible than looking into his face and recognizing that he is our little miracle and that our genes created those perfect lungs (with incredible capacity) and vocal chords 😉 I have realized that my perfectly planned schedule seems absolutely laughable now in hindsight – that not every baby slots into the 3 or 4 hour feeding schedule and that a social calendar is something that exists in a diary – but reality is a bit further from perfectly planned sundowners (unless we all walk around while I gently rock our little one to sleep). Café Del Mar on the iPod has made room for lullabies, my wardrobe is less fashionable and more practical and I eat when I can and whatever is possible to cut into bite size pieces. I cannot remember the last time hubby and I enjoyed a hot plate of food together (and together means at the exact same time, without one walking around lulling baby to sleep!), but I can now eat sushi again (Bonus: it’s bite-sized and best enjoyed cold!).
Motherhood is a rollercoaster of emotions – you constantly doubt yourself, but have to keep reassuring yourself that you’re the only mother your child will know and that instinct is a powerful tool on this journey. There are so many books available and even apps on your smartphone (more about the best apps I’ve found in a later post) to guide you through the process, but even with all the advice, learn to block out the noise and instinctively know what your baby needs.
One month in, I can truly say that nothing can prepare you for the fact that your heart will always beat outside your ribcage for the rest of your life – that the consistency of baby poo can become an intriguing topic of conversation and that your life will never be the same again… But trust me, it’s all positive. Deep breath and relax – people have been raising babies since the dawn of time! You’ll be fine.